Totally Desperate!

so, i love to read books, but i don't have enough money to buy all the books that i want to read! i's a reality BUT! that's why you have library and e-books! so i have a library in my town and i really like to go there and sneak between the books! BUT THE MAIN PROBLEM IS THEY DON'T HAVE THE BOOKS THAT I WANT BECAUSE WE ARE IN CRISIS!!!!!!!!! I'M TOTALLY DESPERATE! i mean... i have the e-books, but i really like to have the book in hand and smell it , and have that wonderful feeling to pass the pages! but i can't! :( and my heart is broken! i wanted to read outlander! i wanted to read the time machine! and all the classics of Jane Austen! and especially, really especially NORTH AND SOUTH by elizabeth gaskell! i'm deeply sad!